I used to tell myself that I want to experience what it is like being drunk. It was nothing but a crazy thing to hope for till yesterday.
I got too emotional.
Somehow I realized it was shameful to cry in an area with bunch of people to see, but I cared less with the influence of alcohol. And as much as others thought I reacted differently than what is expected of me… it felt so good!
It felt so good to be releasing every pain and sadness I have kept when I am normal.
Not that alcohol made me abnormal, but it gave me the guts to be true to myself and to let out of every idea of pain, anger, sadness and all negativity there is, that inhibits me to do my best or be at my best.
I remember everything that has happened when I was drunk. And as I woke up early this morning, I admit now, that I do not regret having experienced it.
The rashes on my skin today (allergies from alcohol) is indeed worth enduring. Although I do certainly think I wont allow this situation to occur again any time soon.
Last night I also realized that…
My siblings will always protect me and take care of me
and that…
My boyfriend loves me…even when drinking made me stupid or made me physically hurt him. hAHAHA!!!
Well it felt good though…next time if I feel like punching him Id go pretending drunk…hahahaha!!!
But Kidding Aside???
I really had fun!!! and I would always remember yesterday for the rest of my life!!!
I guess… sometimes, somehow, nothing really beats your first!..=) And I too should always remember that too much of something is bad!!!=p
